A Dream


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I always told my girls that actions speak louder than words… this is the one time I wish they hadn’t listened.

Ask Ms Mandi

Copyright:  May 23, 2017


4 AM

I am stuck in a dream

I don’t want to leave so I refuse to scream

I tripped and fell into a new life

Screaming cause someone has a knife

Don’t fret, just your imagination

You’ve made a fabulous creation

The grass grows long so you lay

Wishing you would fade away

You don’t want to weep

So you wish and pray

That you won’t wake up the next day

I am stuck in a dream




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As parents, we do not want to admit our teenagers are using drugs, but we need to keep our eyes open.  Elementary school years are the years of innocence.  Jr High School may be another story, all together.  Teenagers may go through drastic changes once they hit 7th and 8th grade and high school may be even worst.

As parents, we need to watch our teenagers for warning signs of possible drug use:

1.  Sudden changes in mood / attitude

2.  Bursts of anger

3.  Isolation from family (spending a lot of time in their room)

4.  Drop in grades

5.  Lack of interest in normal activities

6.  Changes in appetite

7.  Changes in sleeping habits

8.  Lying

9.  Change of friends

10.  Skipping classes / truancy / tardiness

It is our job as parents to keep a close communication with our teenagers / children.  Stay involved in their lives and know where they are and what they are doing when they are not home.

It is also important to let your kids know you “do” trust them and they can come to you to talk when they need to.  Don’t get your feelings hurt if they don’t talk to you about everything, but stay positive and let them know you are there for them when they do want to talk.

Written By:  Ask Ms Mandi

Excerpt from Manuscript: Julian’s Voice


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Kate flew back to Brigham Young University the next week. Jeff continued to work long hours, as his mother’s health continued to deteriorate. Within the year, his mother died in her sleep, as the doctors told him that she had a weakened heart for years.

Jeff didn’t agree with the doctors, but respected their theories. He believed differently, since he had witnessed it himself. His mother had literally died in her sleep from a broken heart.

Written By: Ask Ms Mandi

Copyright 2015

Head Full of Lies


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April 28, 2017

She felt as though her days were limitless

Her heart ached, her soul empty

Longing for the once happy life, the sunshine that would make her smile

Laughter, bonding, memories, happiness

Distant, now it was all so distant

What happened?

Why did he take her?

Why did she take herself,

herself away from me?

Now there is little happiness

A simple smile is painful, but she does it anyway

Faking happiness, telling herself she is okay

Xanax numbs the pain,

Alcohol makes living okay,

But inside she is dead.




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His days were as low

as the bottom of the sea

Depressed, that’s that.


His words were unemotional,

unexpressive, unhappy

Not in his right mind.


His smile was weak,

skin pale like snow,

shaggy hair fallen in his face.


Couldn’t get out of bed,

not even to shower,

not even to eat.


That’s when I realized,

it wasn’t just a bad day he had-

it was never ending.


I guess I could say his days caught up to him,

cause now I’m reading the note he left me

saying “goodbye.”

Rest in Peace


13 yrs


Photography By:  JCW





Excerpt form Manuscript – Julian’s Voice


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Excerpt from Manuscript – Julian’s Voice

“Chris, don’t you dare hang up on me!  Are you there?  Damn it, he hung up…”

“No, I’m still here.”

“What are you going to do?  Are you going to tell your mom?”  She asked.

“Of course not.  She will freak.”

“But, how are you going to hide it?  Don’t you know that you’re not supposed to cut where anyone can see…especially not on your arms.”

“I know, I’ll just wear sweatshirts to school.”  Chris replied.

“But, Chris…it’s over a hundred degrees all week.  That will be obvious.”

“I don’t know what I’m going to do.”

“Why did you do it?”  Why did you start cutting again?  It’s been almost a year that you’ve been clean.”

“I don’t know…I just get so depressed some days.  It’s the only way I feel that I am still alive…I feel so dead inside, you know what I mean?”

She did know what he meant, sadly to say, she did.






Written By:  Ask Ms Mandi

Photograph By:  Ask Ms Mandi

Copyright April 20, 2017