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The Present

22 Saturday Jul 2017

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THE PRESENT

Never let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.

Written By:  JCW

Photograph By:  JMW

Copyright:  July 22, 2017

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A Dream

23 Tuesday May 2017

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I always told my girls that actions speak louder than words… this is the one time I wish they hadn’t listened.

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Copyright:  May 23, 2017

03.20.2017

4 AM

I am stuck in a dream

I don’t want to leave so I refuse to scream

I tripped and fell into a new life

Screaming cause someone has a knife

Don’t fret, just your imagination

You’ve made a fabulous creation

The grass grows long so you lay

Wishing you would fade away

You don’t want to weep

So you wish and pray

That you won’t wake up the next day

I am stuck in a dream

jcw

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ALEXANDER

26 Wednesday Apr 2017

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ALEXANDER

JCW

2/20/16

FOR HER BEST FRIEND…SHE QUOTES, “I MISS YOU!”

 

His days were as low

as the bottom of the sea

Depressed, that’s that.

 

His words were unemotional,

unexpressive, unhappy

Not in his right mind.

 

His smile was weak,

skin pale like snow,

shaggy hair fallen in his face.

 

Couldn’t get out of bed,

not even to shower,

not even to eat.

 

That’s when I realized,

it wasn’t just a bad day he had-

it was never ending.

 

I guess I could say his days caught up to him,

cause now I’m reading the note he left me

saying “goodbye.”

Rest in Peace

Alexander

13 yrs

 

Photography By:  JCW

 

 

 

 

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NICOTINE

09 Thursday Mar 2017

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NICOTINE
JCW
03/09/17

I wonder what love is
When I press my lips up to yours
I feel its lust but you say it’s love.

And when I press a cigarette against my lips
I wonder what love is
Love, this isn’t it, only addiction.

It feels more like love, though
Rather than your lips, a cigarette
Making my lungs full.

It feels safer, though
People say cigarettes are bad and addictive
But I say it’s you.

Photography By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright 03.09.2017

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FIREWORKS

02 Thursday Mar 2017

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Poem By: Jewels

03-02-2017

Firework
JCW
02/08/16

Life is just like a firework
it soars and screams
Upward it flies
The upward journey
is loud and significant
Life is like a firework
The rocket then pops
and sparks.
It is the climax
And then the colors disappear
Into NOTHINGNESS.
Life is like a firework.

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A HAIKU BY JEWELS – IMAGINATION

20 Monday Feb 2017

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02-20-2017

JCW
02/20/16

Imagination
Clouds in the blue sky,
I don’t only see the clouds…
Imagination.

Happiness
In the grass I lay,
Flowers and birds come to stay.
Sunny, sunny day.

Art Work By: JCW

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NINE LIVES – JCW

29 Sunday Jan 2017

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NINE LIVES

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I just found this poem Jewels wrote, she wrote last February 2016. I think it’s probably one of the saddest of them all, but such a great insight into the mind of someone suffering from depression:

JCW
02/19/16

NINE LIVES

One:
Full of happiness
Giggles and laughter
Innocence is not lost

Two:
A new friend today
I am still young
Pure like clouds

Three:
Adolescence
Not all is happy
My smile is still big

Four:
You fill me with joy
Pure joy
I am happy

Five:
Gone, just like that.
I’m so confused-
Why am I getting so many chances?

Six:
Torn, ripped
Broken and bruised
Innocence is lost

Seven:
Happiness is gone
Let me give up
I’m so, so tired.

Eight:
Shaking, like I’m freezing
Can’t do this much longer.
Why’s life unfair?

Nine:
Damaged.
Nothing but bad memories.
I miss life one.

FINALLY, I AM DEAD.

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DEPRESSION IS NOT A CHOICE

10 Tuesday Jan 2017

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DEPRESSION IS NOT A CHOICE…

SISTERS 07.2015

JCW
03/31/2016 – Seven Months and 26 days before she left this earth.

Depression is not a choice. When people ask what it feels like, I don’t even have to think.

It’s like you’re underwater drowning. You forget how to swim. You used to know how, but not anymore. You’re incapable of swimming, so you sink to the bottom of the pool.

Nobody knows you’re drowning. They just think you’re underwater. Casually swimming and you try to call for help, but nobody can hear you. Even if they could, you’ll be shamed.

Your voice is gone. Your mind is all dark. No more everyday happy thoughts and people should not just say, “I’m depressed.” when they’re feeling down because depression is feeling down everyday for months and years.

You’re in this sad box that is locked. You can’t escape. It’s become a part of you…you’re friend, that you don’t want. They will yell at you, scream at the top of their lungs. And you can try to get them to leave you alone, but they’re not going anywhere.

People will say it’s a phase and you wish it was, but it isn’t. You can’t just snap your fingers and be depression free. It takes a long time to recover.

Depression is not cute. It is not something you want. It is not a trend. It is an illness and a bad one too. Having depression is not a sad thought every once in a while, it is not cutting yourself and showing everybody.

Really, it’s about not being able to get out of bed to shower, eat, start your day. It’s staying up until two in the morning thinking about things because you believe you’re a failure and that’s what it will get you to think.

You will begin to know to yourself that you’re useless, and that nobody will want you.

Sad, huh? It’s in your head. Depression is a bad illness and when people compare people who have depression, that’s even worse. Like you can’t become depressed because your parents got a divorce, because somebody else’s parents were killed.

You can’t put a price on sadness and you’ll think, “Oh, God, please someone save me, anyone”, but the only person who could save you is yourself.

It will take a while too.

Do something you love, people will say. They clearly don’t understand that anything you do will not make you happy. You are sick…It isn’t a two-day thing, but I will not be shamed for my depression.

I will always have it in the back of my head, and even though it may make me want to give up, I will not. I will not give up when I have made it this far.

Don’t blame people who are trying hard to make it through their day. So in the end, you have to remember: Depression is not a choice.

-Jewels

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I SAID I DID

01 Sunday Jan 2017

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I Said I Did

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By: JCW
11/26/2016

you said you were fine,
When I asked if you were okay.
I didn’t believe you,
but I said I did.

You said you were cold,
When I asked why you always wore jackets.
I didn’t believe you,
but I said I did.

You said you were sick,
When I asked why you went to a hospital.
I didn’t believe you,
but I said I did.

You said you cared,
When I asked if you did.
I didn’t believe you,
but I said I did.

Now you’re gone,
Dead for good.
I knew I shouldn’t have believed you.
I SHOULDN’T OF SAID I DID.

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