Excerpt to Manuscript – Dear Paxton:
“You don’t know! You don’t have any idea why I may hate you right now?” She screamed.
“What are talking about? Do you mean Sandi? Is she the reason that you are so mad?” She could only stare at him amazed. He couldn’t really believe the lies that were coming out of his mouth, did he? He was smarter than that?
“Of course I am talking about that slut! Who else? She is the one that you messed around with and slept with! Is she not?” Now he knew that she knew.
“What do you mean?” He asked not wanting to give in to the truth.
“I read that stupid letter that she wrote to you. The one about how right you were about “kissing slowly”. Oh it just makes me feel so sick! Cole, how could you do this to us!” She burst into tears.
Sadly, he hung his head ashamed. “Oh, Lisa I am just so confused. I didn’t mean for it to happen this way. It just sort of happened. I don’t know why, she was just there.”
“But, why did you need anyone else? You had me! And I loved you so much. Oh, Cole I still love you so much!” She didn’t know how to feel. One second she was feeling really angry and then the next second she felt so sad, wanting him to hold her closely. Then the emotions would start-up all over again.
“Lisa do you still love me?” He asked.
“Why? What does it matter anymore? You don’t love me anymore.” She cried.
“Yes, I do. I don’t know what I am doing. I just need some time to think, that’s all. Baby, will you just give me some time to get my head straight? Please?”
“Don’t ever call me “baby” again! I am not yours anymore. You don’t love me! If you did you wouldn’t have done this to me? And you would not need more time to think about it. When you truly love someone, Cole, it is forever. You do not get confused. And you never sleep with someone else.” She was so angry. He was acting like a child.
“Was it good? Was she better than me? Is she prettier than me?” She asked.
“Lisa don’t do this to yourself.”
“Why? You did it to me. Answer my question Cole! Is she better than me?”
“No, of course not. You were special to me.” He said.
“Special? I WAS special? You make me sick! I am not special to you! Get out!” She screamed throwing herself at him, hitting him hard on the chest with her fists. She could clearly see a huge hicky on his neck. He hated hickies. “Get out you jerk! You make me sick! I hate you! I hate you for what you have done to me! I will never trust you again. You have betrayed me!” Grabbing her hands, he stared hard into her face, shocked by her rage. There were tears in his eyes. He didn’t say anything more. What was left to say? The damage had been done. He had ruined their special bond. It was his fault and he admitted it to himself.
Lisa’s body weakened as Cole released his grip from around her wrists. Tears were streaming down her face. She had nothing else to say to him as she watched him shut the front door behind him, leaving her alone to silently die inside her soul, heart, and mind.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi