28 Friday Apr 2017
Kate flew back to Brigham Young University the next week. Jeff continued to work long hours, as his mother’s health continued to deteriorate. Within the year, his mother died in her sleep, as the doctors told him that she had a weakened heart for years.
Jeff didn’t agree with the doctors, but respected their theories. He believed differently, since he had witnessed it himself. His mother had literally died in her sleep from a broken heart.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright 2015
20 Thursday Apr 2017
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Excerpt from Manuscript – Julian’s Voice
“Chris, don’t you dare hang up on me! Are you there? Damn it, he hung up…”
“No, I’m still here.”
“What are you going to do? Are you going to tell your mom?” She asked.
“Of course not. She will freak.”
“But, how are you going to hide it? Don’t you know that you’re not supposed to cut where anyone can see…especially not on your arms.”
“I know, I’ll just wear sweatshirts to school.” Chris replied.
“But, Chris…it’s over a hundred degrees all week. That will be obvious.”
“I don’t know what I’m going to do.”
“Why did you do it?” Why did you start cutting again? It’s been almost a year that you’ve been clean.”
“I don’t know…I just get so depressed some days. It’s the only way I feel that I am still alive…I feel so dead inside, you know what I mean?”
She did know what he meant, sadly to say, she did.
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Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
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Copyright April 20, 2017
16 Sunday Apr 2017
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Teen Depression Website
I wonder if this is how she felt…
Everyday is a constant struggle just to stay alive, nothing makes your happy, tired of trying to be happy, can’t imagine this dull pain inside your heart forever…with the hopelessness.
The feeling that you are all alone even though you know you have people who dearly love you.
There is help and you are not alone
The Jewels’ Angels Foundation, Inc.
Suicide Prevention Hotline: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
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Copyright 01.19.2017
15 Saturday Apr 2017
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Excerpt from SNOW:
The sun was beginning to set behind the grayish-blue, Sierra Mountains. The murmurs of the afternoon voices continued to echo in her ears.
It had been an eventful afternoon, but January was exhausted. She had waited twelve years for this day and now it had finally come and gone, as if in a blink.
“Congratulations Young Lady.” Her grandpa extended out his shaky hand, suffering from chronic arthritis for most of his adult life, but obviously proud of his only grandchild.
“Thank you, Grandpa. I’m so happy you and Grandma were able to make it.”
“We wouldn’t have missed your graduation from high school…not in a million years.”
January smiled, politely dismissing herself.
She was distracted. She hadn’t seen Jack since the ceremony ended, almost thirty minutes earlier.
As she wondered out to the parking lot, she heard a car’s brakes screeching. She held her breath, waiting in anticipation for the final part, the sound of metal as it crashed into another car, or the thud the car made as it hit something or someone. She waited with batted breath, but nothing.
She relaxed, letting her breath out. Suddenly out of nowhere she heard footsteps coming up behind her.
Startled, she turned around, ready to scream out…”Jack! what they hell! You scared me to death. Where have you been…”
She didn’t finish her sentence, as he pulled her roughly into him, passionately kissing her with all the desire and wanting he had building up inside of him.
“I love you baby…that’s all I wanted to tell you.” Quickly extending his arm forward, revealing the most gorgeous dozen red roses she had ever seen.
“Oh, Jack! They’re beautiful and so are you. I love you too…more than words!”
“You can prove it to me tonight. Now go home and get pretty for me. I’ll see you tonight at eight.”
January watched with a smile upon her lips, as he ran down the street, jumping back into his white 1967 Camaro, that he had left idling in the middle of the street, and took off in a hurry down Main Street.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright July 26, 2016
13 Monday Feb 2017
I’ve decided to re-write Julian’s Voice for Jewels.
Julian’s Voice:
Hysterically, Jewels cried when she found out the news. They said they had found over twenty different pills in her system.
The County had chalked it up as, she had simply forgotten how many pills she had really taken. In addition, they had found alcohol in her system.
This too surprised Kate.
Mona was dead.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright: December 2015
19 Thursday Jan 2017
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Teen Depression Website
I’ve never suffered from depression, but I wonder if this is how she felt:
Everyday is a constant struggle just to stay alive, nothing makes your happy, tired of trying to be happy, can’t imagine this dull pain inside your heart forever…with the hopelessness.
The feeling that you are all alone even though you know you have people who dearly love you.
If this is what depression is…I can’t even image living like this everyday…
Here is the website to get hooked up with others that may know what you are going through: groups.psychologytoday.com
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright 01.19.2017
18 Sunday Dec 2016
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INSIDE THE MIND OF A 14-YEAR OLD – DEPRESSION KILLS
JCW 11/26/2016
DAYDREAMS
I like to imagine a different world,
one where I can smile
One where I won’t be curled
up in bed for a long while
This place is happy and has rainbows
filled with flowers and blue skies
Sun so bright, it glows
there are no questions or whys
And I like to think I’m happy
an environment I can’t be sad
No movies or books would be sappy
cause all I’ll be is glad.
Sadly this new world isn’t real
I am stuck behind a wall, unable to heal
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Copyright December 18, 2016
30 Wednesday Nov 2016
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The Coffin
Oh how life hurts and death falls
Life is too fast
She now wears deaths shawl
And an old man in a somber cast
She passed with relief
Because the old man knew she wouldn’t last
Her life crumpled like a dead leaf
Oh how life goes so fast
Said the old man in disbelief…
The coffin was as silent as its past
The man was in grief
He was in a somber cast
Written By: JCW
Copyright November 3, 2016
21 Monday Nov 2016
Posted in Authors of the Week
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A MONSTER UNDER MY BED
Sometimes, as I sit in class, surrounded by other kids just like me, I close my eyes…letting my thoughts take me to a better a place.
A place where I can be myself and not pretend to be somebody I’m not. A place free of judgments. I like it here…I feel safe.
Suddenly, I’m startled out of my trance by the bell. My peers hurry out the door.
Slowly I drag myself out of my seat, grabbing my backpack…I think, “It’s just another day as a high school teenager.”
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 21, 2016
16 Wednesday Nov 2016
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A WALK TO GALLOW HILL
Abigail could not remember a time when she had felt more alone. She tried not to think about it, the betrayal, but it was a reality and it was happening to her. Her life had been perfect. She wondered how her husband was doing?
A single tear slowly slide down her flushed cheek. She hadn’t been feeling well lately, but this was expected. Her face felt flushed as she slowly brushed a strand of her hair from across her face.
The footsteps startled her from her gentle thoughts of a better time. She tried not to remember where she was, but it was hard as she heard the keys rattle in the lock. Quietly, she said a prayer as she felt the stirring inside of her belly.
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Copyright 2013
