28 Friday Apr 2017
Kate flew back to Brigham Young University the next week. Jeff continued to work long hours, as his mother’s health continued to deteriorate. Within the year, his mother died in her sleep, as the doctors told him that she had a weakened heart for years.
Jeff didn’t agree with the doctors, but respected their theories. He believed differently, since he had witnessed it himself. His mother had literally died in her sleep from a broken heart.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright 2015
26 Wednesday Apr 2017
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ALEXANDER
JCW
2/20/16
FOR HER BEST FRIEND…SHE QUOTES, “I MISS YOU!”
His days were as low
as the bottom of the sea
Depressed, that’s that.
His words were unemotional,
unexpressive, unhappy
Not in his right mind.
His smile was weak,
skin pale like snow,
shaggy hair fallen in his face.
Couldn’t get out of bed,
not even to shower,
not even to eat.
That’s when I realized,
it wasn’t just a bad day he had-
it was never ending.
I guess I could say his days caught up to him,
cause now I’m reading the note he left me
saying “goodbye.”
Rest in Peace
Alexander
13 yrs
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20 Thursday Apr 2017
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Excerpt from Manuscript – Julian’s Voice
“Chris, don’t you dare hang up on me! Are you there? Damn it, he hung up…”
“No, I’m still here.”
“What are you going to do? Are you going to tell your mom?” She asked.
“Of course not. She will freak.”
“But, how are you going to hide it? Don’t you know that you’re not supposed to cut where anyone can see…especially not on your arms.”
“I know, I’ll just wear sweatshirts to school.” Chris replied.
“But, Chris…it’s over a hundred degrees all week. That will be obvious.”
“I don’t know what I’m going to do.”
“Why did you do it?” Why did you start cutting again? It’s been almost a year that you’ve been clean.”
“I don’t know…I just get so depressed some days. It’s the only way I feel that I am still alive…I feel so dead inside, you know what I mean?”
She did know what he meant, sadly to say, she did.
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Copyright April 20, 2017
16 Sunday Apr 2017
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I wonder if this is how she felt…
Everyday is a constant struggle just to stay alive, nothing makes your happy, tired of trying to be happy, can’t imagine this dull pain inside your heart forever…with the hopelessness.
The feeling that you are all alone even though you know you have people who dearly love you.
There is help and you are not alone
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Copyright 01.19.2017
15 Saturday Apr 2017
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Excerpt from SNOW:
The sun was beginning to set behind the grayish-blue, Sierra Mountains. The murmurs of the afternoon voices continued to echo in her ears.
It had been an eventful afternoon, but January was exhausted. She had waited twelve years for this day and now it had finally come and gone, as if in a blink.
“Congratulations Young Lady.” Her grandpa extended out his shaky hand, suffering from chronic arthritis for most of his adult life, but obviously proud of his only grandchild.
“Thank you, Grandpa. I’m so happy you and Grandma were able to make it.”
“We wouldn’t have missed your graduation from high school…not in a million years.”
January smiled, politely dismissing herself.
She was distracted. She hadn’t seen Jack since the ceremony ended, almost thirty minutes earlier.
As she wondered out to the parking lot, she heard a car’s brakes screeching. She held her breath, waiting in anticipation for the final part, the sound of metal as it crashed into another car, or the thud the car made as it hit something or someone. She waited with batted breath, but nothing.
She relaxed, letting her breath out. Suddenly out of nowhere she heard footsteps coming up behind her.
Startled, she turned around, ready to scream out…”Jack! what they hell! You scared me to death. Where have you been…”
She didn’t finish her sentence, as he pulled her roughly into him, passionately kissing her with all the desire and wanting he had building up inside of him.
“I love you baby…that’s all I wanted to tell you.” Quickly extending his arm forward, revealing the most gorgeous dozen red roses she had ever seen.
“Oh, Jack! They’re beautiful and so are you. I love you too…more than words!”
“You can prove it to me tonight. Now go home and get pretty for me. I’ll see you tonight at eight.”
January watched with a smile upon her lips, as he ran down the street, jumping back into his white 1967 Camaro, that he had left idling in the middle of the street, and took off in a hurry down Main Street.
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Copyright July 26, 2016
08 Saturday Apr 2017
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Copyright 03/2017
03 Monday Apr 2017
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FAITH
Faith to believe in something greater than who we are and where you are today.
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Copyright April 2017
01 Saturday Apr 2017
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HOPE
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You’re not alone in this life’s journey.
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Copyright March 2017
30 Thursday Mar 2017
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LITTLE REMINDERS
I’m driving home from a weekend in the Eastern Sierra Mountains. A place that has always brought me peace; except for recently, the peace has been replaced with the deepest sadness and despair.
Am I crying as I drive through the winding hills and valleys? I must be, although I don’t seem to notice much anymore, considering this an everyday occurrence.
Hopelessness washes over me as I fiddle with the iPod left behind, but has somehow become my security blanket into her mind.
Randomly the song changes from the Eagles to Blink 182, one of her favorite bands. It’s a song I have not heard, called Not Now. I intently listen to the lyrics… instantly mesmerized by them.
The song calls out to me…”God has a plan for you”
“I will be waiting”
“I wish I could give you one last kiss”
As the tears stream down my face, I look up to the mountains, covered with powdery, white snow and see a cross. As clear as day… a cross in the mountain formed from the melting snow.
At that moment a sense of comfort washes over me…she is always here with me and waiting for the day I will see her again.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
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Copyright March 30, 2017
09 Thursday Mar 2017
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NICOTINE
JCW
03/09/17
I wonder what love is
When I press my lips up to yours
I feel its lust but you say it’s love.
And when I press a cigarette against my lips
I wonder what love is
Love, this isn’t it, only addiction.
It feels more like love, though
Rather than your lips, a cigarette
Making my lungs full.
It feels safer, though
People say cigarettes are bad and addictive
But I say it’s you.
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Copyright 03.09.2017
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