14 Friday Jul 2017
Posted in Just a PERFECT Thought, Quote of the Week
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Awareness, Blogging, Hope, Inspiration, Life, Mental Health, Music, News, School, Suicide, TEEN DEPRESSION
Suicide is never an option, because you are worth it!
Innocence is never truly lost, find your inner child…
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
July 14, 2017
23 Tuesday May 2017
Posted in POEMS By Jewels
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Addiction, Awareness, Blogging, Hope, Life, Love, Motivational Speaking, Poems, Religion, School, Suicide, Support, TEEN DEPRESSION, The Jewels' Angels Foundation
I always told my girls that actions speak louder than words… this is the one time I wish they hadn’t listened.
Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright: May 23, 2017
4 AM
I am stuck in a dream
I don’t want to leave so I refuse to scream
I tripped and fell into a new life
Screaming cause someone has a knife
Don’t fret, just your imagination
You’ve made a fabulous creation
The grass grows long so you lay
Wishing you would fade away
You don’t want to weep
So you wish and pray
That you won’t wake up the next day
I am stuck in a dream
jcw
03 Wednesday May 2017
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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CHOOSE LIFE
THE JEWELS’ ANGELS FOUNDATION, INC.
Photography By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright February 2017
13 Thursday Apr 2017
Posted in Poems, Quote of the Day
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Depression, Family, Friends, Help, Hope, Hopelessness, Life, Love, Non-profits, Strength, Suicide, Support Groups, Teen, The Jewels' Angels Foundation, Therapy
STRENGTH
THE JEWELS’ ANGELS FOUNDATION, INC.
Strength is the ability to never give up,
Hopelessness is the determination to do so.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright May 13, 2017
01 Saturday Apr 2017
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HOPE
The Jewels Angels’ Foundation, Inc.
You’re not alone in this life’s journey.
http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright March 2017
12 Sunday Mar 2017
Posted in Just a PERFECT Thought
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Depression, Help, Hotline, Life, Mental Illness, Prevention, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide, Support Groups, TEEN DEPRESSION, Teen Suicide
THE MASK
People are always asking me, “How are you?”
What am I supposed to say when I don’t even know how I am.
How am I supposed to be?
How do they want me to be? That is more like it…how would you like me to be?
I get up every morning, with struggle, but I do it because I know that is what is expected of me.
I go to work and try to be the super star everyone has always expected from me…hell, I even expected it from me. Lack of ambition and drive were never a weakness to me.
I put on my make-up, wash my hair, and put on the warrior face everyday. “How are you, they ask?” “I’m okay and how are you.” I respond.
I act as they wish me to act…
But they don’t see the demons in my head at night, once the sun sets behind the sky. The overwhelming loneliness that has become my life. My new life.
I’m supposed to find a different life they tell me, my old life is gone and I will never be the same, especially after losing a child to suicide…this is what the experts tell me.
But the thing is, I don’t want a new life…I liked my old life. I miss my old life and all the little things I took for granted.
I miss cooking dinner at night while Jewels did her homework.
I miss getting take-out at Miguel’s Jr. on Tuesday nights.
I miss hugging her.
I miss smelling her.
I miss her laugh.
I miss her burps.
I miss her kind soul, when she would get mad at me for being mean.
I miss her messy room.
I miss the towels on the floor.
I miss her beside me while I drove her to school.
I miss my best friend.
I miss my daughter.
I miss her…
If you know someone who is thinking of suicide, talk to them, comfort them and let them know that they are not alone, help is everywhere, they don’t really want to die, they just want the pain to end.
Call: 1-800-273-TALK
Go to: suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photography By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright: March 12, 2017
11 Saturday Feb 2017
Posted in Just a PERFECT Thought
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Adolescence, College, Family, Friends, high school, Hope, Life, Mental Health, Suicide, Support Groups, TEEN DEPRESSION
LOST
Somewhere between the age of eleven and fourteen we lost her.
Please note that I don’t write and post these images and words for my own recognition or salvation…I do this so other teens and parents, who may see our site, find a sense of knowledge and or comfort, knowing that they are not alone in this.
We want to get the word out that teen depression and suicide is real and we are determined to reach out to as many readers as we can…if we can help save just one life from suicide, then our job was worth it and Jewels’ death wasn’t for nothing.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photography By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright February 11, 2017
29 Sunday Jan 2017
Posted in POEMS By Jewels
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NINE LIVES
I just found this poem Jewels wrote, she wrote last February 2016. I think it’s probably one of the saddest of them all, but such a great insight into the mind of someone suffering from depression:
JCW
02/19/16
NINE LIVES
One:
Full of happiness
Giggles and laughter
Innocence is not lost
Two:
A new friend today
I am still young
Pure like clouds
Three:
Adolescence
Not all is happy
My smile is still big
Four:
You fill me with joy
Pure joy
I am happy
Five:
Gone, just like that.
I’m so confused-
Why am I getting so many chances?
Six:
Torn, ripped
Broken and bruised
Innocence is lost
Seven:
Happiness is gone
Let me give up
I’m so, so tired.
Eight:
Shaking, like I’m freezing
Can’t do this much longer.
Why’s life unfair?
Nine:
Damaged.
Nothing but bad memories.
I miss life one.
FINALLY, I AM DEAD.
30 Wednesday Nov 2016
Posted in Authors of the Week
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Author, Death, Depression, Life, Poems, Teen Suicide, Writer
The Coffin
Oh how life hurts and death falls
Life is too fast
She now wears deaths shawl
And an old man in a somber cast
She passed with relief
Because the old man knew she wouldn’t last
Her life crumpled like a dead leaf
Oh how life goes so fast
Said the old man in disbelief…
The coffin was as silent as its past
The man was in grief
He was in a somber cast
Written By: JCW
Copyright November 3, 2016
26 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in Quote of the Day
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California, Life, Mammoth Lakes, Photographer, Poems, Published, Rainbow Falls, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
RAINBOW FALLS – MAMMOTH LAKE CALIFORNIA
To live life, is to live in the present.
The past remains in our memories,
The future strives in our dreams,
But the present is our existence.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 26, 2016
