11 Friday Nov 2016
Posted in The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
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Author, Love, Photography, Poems, Published, Relationships, Southern California, Travel, Vacation, Venice Beach, Writer
THE SENTIMENTAL SUNSET
I fear I will never love again.
Either you love him and he doesn’t love you
or
he loves you and you don’t love him.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 11, 2016
08 Tuesday Nov 2016
Posted in Authors of the Week
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Adolescence, Arcata, Author, Break-up, Coast, Humboldt County, Love, Northern California, Poetry, Published, Relationships, Writer, Youth
Untrusting
9/28/16
push away the boy who cares
it’s what you’re best at.
paranoid thinking
that he’s not gonna stay.
when he really cares
a lot about you.
but you just can’t see
through the bad past with others.
so you decide
you’ll hurt him first.
-jcw
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
05 Saturday Nov 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Author, Beach, California, Coastal Living, Los Angeles, Photography, Southern California, Travel, Venice Beach, Writer
VENICE BEACH CALIFORNIA BOARDWALK
Venice Beach, CA…a place with such artistic movement.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright January 1, 2016
02 Wednesday Nov 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Author, Book, California, Cocaine, Crank, Crystal Meth, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Love, Manuscript, Marriage, Novel, Photographer, Published, Recovery, snow, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – Snow
The wooden bench had turned out to be a bad idea, as the beginning of the first frost escalated the startling cold that was quickly creeping up and under her skin.
January didn’t seem to notice much, as she was lost in thought. She was annoyed with herself…more like in disbelief…how could she not have seen the signs.
She had loved this man for more than half her life, but somehow she had missed it.
Earlier that day she had spoken, on the phone, with an old friend…a friend who had brought it to her attention that Jack had been using throughout their life together. She knew that he smoked weed, but cocaine? Or as her friend had kindly put it, whatever drug was available that day.
She had always blamed the weed for his mood swings, his fits of anger, and his sudden outburst of violence. She herself had become co-dependent, wanting him to smoke so that he would be numb enough to be kind to her.
She had fallen into the vicious cycle of the poor pathetic wife who deserved what she had accepted. She despised women like this, but yet she had become the spitting image of just that.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 2, 2016
23 Sunday Oct 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Author, California, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Owen's Valley, Photography, Published, Scenery, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
Eastern California Mountains
Horseshoe Meadow in the Eastern Sierra Mountains. Beautiful scenery and only three-hours away from the city.
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 2016
19 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
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Author, California, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Horseshoe Meadow, Love, Photogarphy, Published, Relationships, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
To love someone is to be vulnerable,
vulnerability is raw.
Simplicity of love is to love completely,
but love is one-sided.
Love someone deeply,
but they don’t love you the same.
Or do we simply accept the person who loves us,
therefore, not loving them passionately back by being shielded.
Love is risk,
protecting our heart means not loving back.
Can two people love each other at the same time,
Or is it one-sided.
Complete and passionate love are both hearts uniting into one.
never one broken.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 19, 2016
12 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Author, California, Cocaine, Love, Published, Recovery, San Francisco, snow, Unpublished, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – SNOW
Autumn, a time when the leaves changed from green to yellow to orange and then red. The days were warm in the mornings, as the nights escaped into the most certain chill.
This time of year had always been January’s favorite. Moving to San Francisco had been his idea, but now that she had warmed up to it, she too loved the quaint city with all its undying charm.
Standing out on their balcony, with her faux-fur coat wrapped around her body, fighting to keep her warm, but desperately failing, she watched the city lights flicker in the distance. Jack seemed to be spending more and more time away from their home and from her.
She perniciously had too much time on her hands to think. She didn’t like when her mind drifted over to the darker side, but it had been hard not to lately.
She missed him so much that her heart ached. She knew in her heart that she was losing him, but she couldn’t compete with this. She had to let him go, but she didn’t know if she had the courage to do so.
She had always hated that stupid saying, “If you love someone set them free and if they are yours to keep, they will come back to you.”
“Dumb saying.” She thought, despairingly wiping away the tears.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: JCW
Copyright: October 12, 2016
05 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in Just a PERFECT Thought
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Author, Counseling, Daughter, Huffington Post, Magazine, Mother, Pain, Parents, Photography, Psychology, Relationships, Support, Teenagers
A Monster Under My Bed
I tell her I’m getting better…well I was getting better.
Is it a lie when you want it to be true, but some how you fail, is it?
I tell her it will be okay, as I lay in my bed, late at night, gently rubbing my finger tips over the scars.
She asks me why I do it…I told her emotional pain is heavier on the soul than physical.
She just looked at me with a blank stare.
I knew she didn’t understand.
That’s okay…I understand.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 5, 2016
01 Saturday Oct 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Animal Cruelty, Animal Rights, Author, Banning, California, Canada, Legislation, Montreal, Photography, Pitbulls, SPCA, Staffordshire Bull Terriers, United States of America
PITBULL AWARENESS MONTH
Bowzar is my third Staffordshire Bull Terrier (Pitbull). He, has been and is one of the kindest soul.
Pitbulls are very loyal, smart, loving, and tolerant creatures, and with this in mind, their owners too, must be responsible, loving and kind-hearted people. Cruel and mean dog owners must not match up with this breed or any breed or animal, for that matter. After all, any dog that let’s you dress him up in human clothes is gentle and good.
Bowzar will be ten years old tomorrow, October 2nd. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOWZ!
Let’s stop animal cruelty and the banning of pitbulls in Montreal!
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 1, 2016
28 Wednesday Sep 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Addiction, Author, Bolsa Chica Beach, California, Cocaine, Love, Published, Recovery, Relationships, Religion, snow, Sober, Travel, Unpublished, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – SNOW
She lay there, in her expensive Donna Karen suit, carefully watching him, as his chest slowly went up and down with each reserved breath.
January knew she should change her clothes and grab a bite to eat, but she was afraid. She was afraid to leave his side.
In the past, she had taken life as it came. In other words, she hadn’t taken it seriously. Not until today.
Jack stirred, moving only slightly in his bed. Startled, January hastily pushed the lock of hair away from her eyes…digging in her purse for a bobby pin, quickly shoving it in her mouth, and nervously pushing her hair behind her ear.
Starring intently, only inches from his face, she waited, waited for him to wake.
“Jack Honey…can you hear me? Jack?”
The room fell silent once again…nothing could be heard, except for the breathing machine, as it went beep, beep, beep…driving January mad.
She wasn’t a religious person, although she had been around plenty of people claiming they were, but she needed to get her voice out…she needed God to listen to her prayer.
“Dear God, please bring Jack back to me…I promise to love him more and help him to get clean and stay clean.”
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright September 28, 2016
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