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PATIENCE

05 Friday May 2017

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Patience is a virtue…so true.

Photography By:  Ask Ms Mandi

Copyright May 2017

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Excerpt form Manuscript – Julian’s Voice

20 Thursday Apr 2017

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Excerpt from Manuscript – Julian’s Voice

“Chris, don’t you dare hang up on me!  Are you there?  Damn it, he hung up…”

“No, I’m still here.”

“What are you going to do?  Are you going to tell your mom?”  She asked.

“Of course not.  She will freak.”

“But, how are you going to hide it?  Don’t you know that you’re not supposed to cut where anyone can see…especially not on your arms.”

“I know, I’ll just wear sweatshirts to school.”  Chris replied.

“But, Chris…it’s over a hundred degrees all week.  That will be obvious.”

“I don’t know what I’m going to do.”

“Why did you do it?”  Why did you start cutting again?  It’s been almost a year that you’ve been clean.”

“I don’t know…I just get so depressed some days.  It’s the only way I feel that I am still alive…I feel so dead inside, you know what I mean?”

She did know what he meant, sadly to say, she did.

 

THE JEWELS’ ANGELS FOUNDATION, INC.

A NON-PROFIT 

 

 

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Copyright April 20, 2017

 

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DEPRESSION IS NOT A CHOICE

10 Tuesday Jan 2017

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DEPRESSION IS NOT A CHOICE…

SISTERS 07.2015

JCW
03/31/2016 – Seven Months and 26 days before she left this earth.

Depression is not a choice. When people ask what it feels like, I don’t even have to think.

It’s like you’re underwater drowning. You forget how to swim. You used to know how, but not anymore. You’re incapable of swimming, so you sink to the bottom of the pool.

Nobody knows you’re drowning. They just think you’re underwater. Casually swimming and you try to call for help, but nobody can hear you. Even if they could, you’ll be shamed.

Your voice is gone. Your mind is all dark. No more everyday happy thoughts and people should not just say, “I’m depressed.” when they’re feeling down because depression is feeling down everyday for months and years.

You’re in this sad box that is locked. You can’t escape. It’s become a part of you…you’re friend, that you don’t want. They will yell at you, scream at the top of their lungs. And you can try to get them to leave you alone, but they’re not going anywhere.

People will say it’s a phase and you wish it was, but it isn’t. You can’t just snap your fingers and be depression free. It takes a long time to recover.

Depression is not cute. It is not something you want. It is not a trend. It is an illness and a bad one too. Having depression is not a sad thought every once in a while, it is not cutting yourself and showing everybody.

Really, it’s about not being able to get out of bed to shower, eat, start your day. It’s staying up until two in the morning thinking about things because you believe you’re a failure and that’s what it will get you to think.

You will begin to know to yourself that you’re useless, and that nobody will want you.

Sad, huh? It’s in your head. Depression is a bad illness and when people compare people who have depression, that’s even worse. Like you can’t become depressed because your parents got a divorce, because somebody else’s parents were killed.

You can’t put a price on sadness and you’ll think, “Oh, God, please someone save me, anyone”, but the only person who could save you is yourself.

It will take a while too.

Do something you love, people will say. They clearly don’t understand that anything you do will not make you happy. You are sick…It isn’t a two-day thing, but I will not be shamed for my depression.

I will always have it in the back of my head, and even though it may make me want to give up, I will not. I will not give up when I have made it this far.

Don’t blame people who are trying hard to make it through their day. So in the end, you have to remember: Depression is not a choice.

-Jewels

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A MONSTER UNDER MY BED

21 Monday Nov 2016

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A MONSTER UNDER MY BED

11-21

Sometimes, as I sit in class, surrounded by other kids just like me, I close my eyes…letting my thoughts take me to a better a place.

A place where I can be myself and not pretend to be somebody I’m not. A place free of judgments. I like it here…I feel safe.

Suddenly, I’m startled out of my trance by the bell. My peers hurry out the door.

Slowly I drag myself out of my seat, grabbing my backpack…I think, “It’s just another day as a high school teenager.”

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Copyright November 21, 2016

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THE CITY OF ALL POSSIBILITES

14 Monday Nov 2016

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THE CITY OF ALL POSSIBILITIES

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I fell in love with the city by the bay the first time I visited.
Walking up and down the streets, I felt at home.

The smells, the people, the architecture.
Simply unique.

The word eccentric?
Creativity flowing through the air, is a better description.

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Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 14, 2016

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Excerpt from Manuscript – Dear Paxton

09 Wednesday Nov 2016

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DEAR PAXTON

SISTERS 07.2015

She feared him more than she could express. 

She wasn’t going to tell him about her move. Perhaps, after she was safe and secure in her new home and far away from him. 

Maybe, just maybe she would call him to relieve herself of any guilt she may be feeling towards him and about their relationship. 

Fear gripped her heart as she shuttered with the thought of coming face to face with him again someday. 

She prayed that day would never come, but her fears kept it alive, especially in her dreams. 

For now, she would be safe and maybe he would soon forget her…

Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright: August 2015

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Venice Beach California Boardwalk

05 Saturday Nov 2016

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VENICE BEACH CALIFORNIA BOARDWALK

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Venice Beach, CA…a place with such artistic movement.

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Copyright January 1, 2016

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Excerpt from Manuscript – Snow

02 Wednesday Nov 2016

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Excerpt from Manuscript – Snow

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The wooden bench had turned out to be a bad idea, as the beginning of the first frost escalated the startling cold that was quickly creeping up and under her skin.

January didn’t seem to notice much, as she was lost in thought. She was annoyed with herself…more like in disbelief…how could she not have seen the signs.

She had loved this man for more than half her life, but somehow she had missed it.

Earlier that day she had spoken, on the phone, with an old friend…a friend who had brought it to her attention that Jack had been using throughout their life together. She knew that he smoked weed, but cocaine? Or as her friend had kindly put it, whatever drug was available that day.

She had always blamed the weed for his mood swings, his fits of anger, and his sudden outburst of violence. She herself had become co-dependent, wanting him to smoke so that he would be numb enough to be kind to her.

She had fallen into the vicious cycle of the poor pathetic wife who deserved what she had accepted. She despised women like this, but yet she had become the spitting image of just that.

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Copyright November 2, 2016

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RAINBOW FALLS – MAMMOTH LAKE

26 Wednesday Oct 2016

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RAINBOW FALLS – MAMMOTH LAKE CALIFORNIA

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To live life, is to live in the present.

The past remains in our memories,

The future strives in our dreams,

But the present is our existence.

Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
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Copyright October 26, 2016

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Eastern California Mountains

23 Sunday Oct 2016

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Eastern California Mountains

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Horseshoe Meadow in the Eastern Sierra Mountains. Beautiful scenery and only three-hours away from the city.

Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 2016

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