11 Friday Nov 2016
Posted in The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
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Author, Love, Photography, Poems, Published, Relationships, Southern California, Travel, Vacation, Venice Beach, Writer
THE SENTIMENTAL SUNSET
I fear I will never love again.
Either you love him and he doesn’t love you
or
he loves you and you don’t love him.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 11, 2016
08 Tuesday Nov 2016
Posted in Authors of the Week
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Adolescence, Arcata, Author, Break-up, Coast, Humboldt County, Love, Northern California, Poetry, Published, Relationships, Writer, Youth
Untrusting
9/28/16
push away the boy who cares
it’s what you’re best at.
paranoid thinking
that he’s not gonna stay.
when he really cares
a lot about you.
but you just can’t see
through the bad past with others.
so you decide
you’ll hurt him first.
-jcw
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
05 Saturday Nov 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Author, Beach, California, Coastal Living, Los Angeles, Photography, Southern California, Travel, Venice Beach, Writer
VENICE BEACH CALIFORNIA BOARDWALK
Venice Beach, CA…a place with such artistic movement.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright January 1, 2016
02 Wednesday Nov 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Author, Book, California, Cocaine, Crank, Crystal Meth, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Love, Manuscript, Marriage, Novel, Photographer, Published, Recovery, snow, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – Snow
The wooden bench had turned out to be a bad idea, as the beginning of the first frost escalated the startling cold that was quickly creeping up and under her skin.
January didn’t seem to notice much, as she was lost in thought. She was annoyed with herself…more like in disbelief…how could she not have seen the signs.
She had loved this man for more than half her life, but somehow she had missed it.
Earlier that day she had spoken, on the phone, with an old friend…a friend who had brought it to her attention that Jack had been using throughout their life together. She knew that he smoked weed, but cocaine? Or as her friend had kindly put it, whatever drug was available that day.
She had always blamed the weed for his mood swings, his fits of anger, and his sudden outburst of violence. She herself had become co-dependent, wanting him to smoke so that he would be numb enough to be kind to her.
She had fallen into the vicious cycle of the poor pathetic wife who deserved what she had accepted. She despised women like this, but yet she had become the spitting image of just that.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright November 2, 2016
28 Friday Oct 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Addiction, Blow, Cancer, Cocaine, Death, Hope, Love, Marriage, Photograpahy, Published Author, Relationships, snow, Unpublished Author, Winter, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – Snow
The first snow of the year. The air was crisp with the hint of winter, causing her breath to catch in her throat, but yet so pure, allowing her thoughts to drift into promises she had told yourself, but had not kept.
January wrapped her leather coat tightly around her. Although she was cold, she had the softest warmth radiating around her. She was at peace. She knew she had done the right thing.
She knew she had hurt Jack…Christ, it had hurt her too, but she knew he deserved to know the truth. The truth was freeing because it allowed her the freedom to be honest with not only herself, but with him.
However, she was still haunted by his eyes, the disturbing contour of his face as she had told him.
Her only concern was where to go from here.
He had always been strong, but she was worried for him because she knew that he would have a hard time. After all, he was an addict and addicts weren’t good with dealing with change.
She knew they would have to change everything about their life. She would be in and out of hospitals for the next couple of months. This would put a definite toll on their marriage.
But she was confident in the strength of their relationship, after all, they had over come his addiction…
Jumping, January turned, startled by the sound of the opening of the front door.
“Jack…”
“Sweetheart…I am so sorry I left you…I’m home now and I will never leave you again.” Jack pulled her into his chest, tightly holding her, gently smoothing back her hair from her face as his tears fell.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 28, 2016
26 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in Quote of the Day
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California, Life, Mammoth Lakes, Photographer, Poems, Published, Rainbow Falls, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
RAINBOW FALLS – MAMMOTH LAKE CALIFORNIA
To live life, is to live in the present.
The past remains in our memories,
The future strives in our dreams,
But the present is our existence.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 26, 2016
23 Sunday Oct 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Author, California, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Owen's Valley, Photography, Published, Scenery, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
Eastern California Mountains
Horseshoe Meadow in the Eastern Sierra Mountains. Beautiful scenery and only three-hours away from the city.
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 2016
19 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
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Author, California, Eastern Sierra Mountains, Horseshoe Meadow, Love, Photogarphy, Published, Relationships, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Unpublished, Vacation, Writer
The Lost Diary of Jane Doe
To love someone is to be vulnerable,
vulnerability is raw.
Simplicity of love is to love completely,
but love is one-sided.
Love someone deeply,
but they don’t love you the same.
Or do we simply accept the person who loves us,
therefore, not loving them passionately back by being shielded.
Love is risk,
protecting our heart means not loving back.
Can two people love each other at the same time,
Or is it one-sided.
Complete and passionate love are both hearts uniting into one.
never one broken.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 19, 2016
16 Sunday Oct 2016
Posted in Photographs from Art Gallery
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Autumn, California, June Lake, Lakes, Magazine, Mammoth Lakes, Photography, Sunset Magazine, Travel, Vacation, Writer
JUNE LAKE
Photograph By: Ask Ms Mandi
Copyright October 2016
12 Wednesday Oct 2016
Posted in Excerpt from Manuscript - SNOW
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Abusive Relationships, Addiction, Author, California, Cocaine, Love, Published, Recovery, San Francisco, snow, Unpublished, Writer
Excerpt from Manuscript – SNOW
Autumn, a time when the leaves changed from green to yellow to orange and then red. The days were warm in the mornings, as the nights escaped into the most certain chill.
This time of year had always been January’s favorite. Moving to San Francisco had been his idea, but now that she had warmed up to it, she too loved the quaint city with all its undying charm.
Standing out on their balcony, with her faux-fur coat wrapped around her body, fighting to keep her warm, but desperately failing, she watched the city lights flicker in the distance. Jack seemed to be spending more and more time away from their home and from her.
She perniciously had too much time on her hands to think. She didn’t like when her mind drifted over to the darker side, but it had been hard not to lately.
She missed him so much that her heart ached. She knew in her heart that she was losing him, but she couldn’t compete with this. She had to let him go, but she didn’t know if she had the courage to do so.
She had always hated that stupid saying, “If you love someone set them free and if they are yours to keep, they will come back to you.”
“Dumb saying.” She thought, despairingly wiping away the tears.
Written By: Ask Ms Mandi
Photograph By: JCW
Copyright: October 12, 2016
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